Monday, October 26, 2009

One of Those Days.... *SIGH*

Hola!....Soooo, today has pretty much been a blur. Nothing I did today gave me any sense of purpose. I am a bartender/server at Applebee's for now and that ish is getting mighty old!! I'm in the process of looking for anther job/career but this economy is like a knife in my side and everyday it gets turned. I know I should be happy that I have some sort of income but nowadays I feel like it's not even worth it.

I can't get ahead trading my dollars for hours...its just not possible right now. Its times like these where I can see or somewhat understand why people turn to other "illegal" alternatives to increase their cash flow. Thankfully I have loving parents who allow me to live rent free, but umm I'm a 22 year old college grad (from a private school mind you!!) and I have YET to snag a REAL job. It can be so difficult trying to stay positive in times like these.

Now I know some of you may think, "Gosh, stop complaining, you have it better than most people right now" which may be true; however, it does not negate the fact that everyone wants to feel accomplished, everyone wants to have something they can call their own (poor or not). It is just something that each of us has that wants to be independent and self sufficient. AND I'M NO EXCEPTION...

Its times like these where I wish I had that special someone to just hold me and love on me, telling me that everything will be ok. Encouraging me to keep going and fighting. Giving me advice on how to deal. Offering some sort of compassion and warmth in my cold world. A kiss and a hug to make these moments fade away or just a little bit easier to bear. For now I just pray and hope God sends some open doors my way...hopefully he'll do the same for you. I'm off to sleep...kind of early I know but sleep is the only place I can have what I want.

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ThinkGoHard said...

Man I understand u on that. I'm trying to finish up right now and I know it's gonna be hella hard for me to get a job. Thinking bout staying in school and becaming a career