Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Risk-Free Love?!?

I wish there was such a thing as "risk-free love" but lets be honest, love is so complex that it requires an "all in" approach. I've had my share of heartaches and breaks but to be honest I'm not looking to be hurt again. I wish there was a way to remove all uncertainty and the drama that comes with opening up your heart to someone.

I seem to always be in a position where red flags are thrown up in my face and I either ignore them or make excuses for them. I wish there was a way I could be certain that the direction I'm going in is the right one and that I'm not setting myself up for more unnecessary drama and heartache. Lately I've been scared of love, not sure if I can trust it again.

I see signs that tell me loves an open road, but there are flags that keep popping up warning me that things may not be as they seem. I'm scared. Not sure if I should keep trusting, keep hoping, keep believing that what I'm being told isn't all smoke and mirrors.

My level of trust in people is at its lowest. I'm trying to be open to new situations and possible love interest but my mind is so critical, my heart is super skeptical and I can't seem to avoid running into moments of happiness followed by dry spells of bitterness and irritation.

 I just want to be happy.
 I just want to be treated the way I treat others.
I just want to love with no limits.
I just want to be able to trust again.
I want risk-free love.

Love that is real. Love that is unconditional. Love that is understanding.

Is that really so much to ask?!


BigDog said...

It must suck when you are trying to find love and the only thing guys see is your chest. you gotta find a guy who can be your friend first

Anonymous said...

Why don't you try God, and only God? Maybe a man isn't what you're missing, maybe a real relationship where you've truly fallen in love with God is...and I can say that, because that's where I am, strictly trying to only fall in love with Jesus...and the desires of my heart will come later. Just think about, do you think you've really allowed yourself to love God the way you should?? Love ya Tiff.