Hello all..welcome new followers..don't be strangers! Anywho...so today was interesting. After a long day of serving people...and opening a savings account at a credit union...I had to deal with some drama that got started all because niggas don't know how to keep their mouths SHUT!!! So I came across this cartoon and it needs to be shared because I feel like I'm in a similar situation but with opposite results:
Saturday, January 30, 2010
RUN AND TELL THAT!!
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Monday, January 25, 2010
VEGAS BABY!!!
Hey hey hey!! You miss me? I've missed yall that's for sure. Lets just get right to it!
I took a VERY SPONTANEOUS trip to VEGAS with my BFF Kristine "Chicken" Thompson, friend Anastasia, cousin Zarinah and her friend...umm I forget her name. Lol.. ANYWHO, we talked about going but never made acutal plans so we just left it alone. But saturday morning, Kristine and I wake up and decide...LETS DO IT!!....lol. So we reserve a room at the Circus Circus for only $116.56 (split between 5 girls...you do that math!) greatness..then we get the "hook up" from her sister who works for Enterprise Rental Car (shout out to them!!) and we got a black on black jeep liberty, which was nice to drive but it can't whip like my lil black civic! lol hahhaha..
So we leave around 3, swoop up my cousin and her friend in San Bernardino by 3:30 and got to Vegas by 7:30...yeah I was speeding...SO!!! =P We stayed for 3days and 2nights...just enough. We were so excited to be there and were so ready to just let loose and have a good time. There are so many pics from the trip but I'll post a few.
From left to right: Me, Anastasia, Kristine, Zarinah. It was so crowded in the first club we went to that we just danced with each other till some LAMES tried to get all up in our circle...you know I had to shut that mess down...EXCUSE YOU!! Lol...
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Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Happier Days To Come...
Well yesterday was alot for me emotionally...as you could probably tell. But um...I'm not going to appologize because that's what my blog is for..to vent and express myself freely without worrying about being boxed in by others expectations. So after doing a lot of thinking, I've started making moves toward my 2010 plan to be great. I filled out my FAFSA so law school here I come...please welcome me with open arms!! Lol The music thing will always be an ongoing process, gotta build some fans...How about you!!! Lol I'd appreciate it... But anywho I'll be posting some of my music up soon stay posted. Also, if you write, play, produce, record music and want to take care of some business...DON'T HESITATE TO HIT ME!!
In other vains...I had a very interesting convo with "HIM," at first we just started talking about problems like we normally do and just get frustrated with one another, then He paused, realizing that this stuff wasn't getting us anywhere and we decided to just put all the bs aside and just start new. To let go of the past and take everything that ever happened, that was negative, and just push it out the window with 2009. Now I know some of you may be thinking: "wait, after all that stuff you wrote yesterday he gets back in good graces like that?" The answer is, Yes, HELL YES!! It's like this poster I saw Withlove__Starz post earlier today:
I'm so ready to start fresh. I want to be happy with him. There are so many other guys that try but just don't measure up. I'm excited and look forward to happier days with my BOYFRIEND...love saying that. I know nothing is perfect all the time but when I'm with him nothing else matters. This song says it best...listen to it and GOODNIGHT! As always...I love you for reading and double time for commenting!!
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Monday, January 11, 2010
::WARNING:: Extreme Emotion...
I've been avoiding this all day but here goes nothing...
There is so much on my mind I don't know where to start...
- Where the heck am I going to go in May? (I've gotta be out my parents house by then and I'm in no position to do that yet) Ugh...I hate that they moved to Temecula..wtf?! what is this place??? I feel like I'm rotting as I type this. There is NOTHING HERE!! NO JOBS! NO FRIENDS!! NO SOCIAL LIFE!!! I'm just existing here...passing the days away waiting and waiting for an opportunity to spark, for God to open a door, shoot I'll craw through a window if he cracks one! I know I haven't been as close to God as I should be or have been but lately I just feel like the more I try, the more things fall apart. The more I reach out, the further things seem out of reach. I am tired. I feel life and my plan for my life has rejected me.
- WHY THE F*CK DO I WASTE MY TIME?! (I sit around giving excuses for ppl who clearly are too selfish and selfcentered to care about anyone else but themselves. I'm tired of talking and explaining till I'm blue in the face---and I'm coco-mel so that's A LOT OF F-ING TALKING!!---about what will make things better and what needs to happen in order for things to be "comfortable" or "happy" then NOTHING CHANGES..I'm to the point where I have to ask myself a serious question: "why?" Why stay with someone who shows little to no regard as to how you're doing or feeling? Why keep dealing with someone who seems to have the attitude "out of sight, out of mind"???? Why keep fighting for something that will never work under the current circumstances?? Why keep doubting your intuition??? If it doesn't make sense...its PROBABLY a LIE TIFFANIE!!! Wake the hell up and smell the BULLSHHHhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!TTTT. Who just doesn't call the person they say they care about? Who just blows off things cus they don't care enough about your feelings or enough about the relationship to make an effort?!?! Who says "I do care about you and have the same feelings as you do" but doesn't tell you how they feel about you, doesn't want to have meaningful conversation anymore, doesn't pay you a compliment, doesn't talk about future plans that involve you?!? Never takes FIVE F*CKING MINUTES OUT THEIR OHHHHH SOOO BUSY LIFE TO CALL AND SAY HELLO!!? maybe even a GOODMORNING/GOODNIGHT?!?! (I feel like crying but for what? that's not gonna change anything) What is it that makes me love so hard when I get so little in return....It can't just be the body or the looks cus that's nothing new for me. I just don't understand why I love so much, what can't seem to love me back. *Crying*
- I'm going to give law school another shot, but that means more student loans (cus the gov only gives money to the dirt poor!!!) Then I'd have to move back to stupid San Diego (I wanna be in LA!!!!) Then I'd have to figure out where I would live, and what job I could do while being a full time student. I know I have to think of where I see myself in 5-10 years and not just a year from now. Lord willing I want to have a family and a home and kids that I can support with no problems, you know give them a comfortable life. And God knows that's not gonna happen
- 2010 is suppose to be my breakout year. The year I decided to stop putting up with all the minutia my mind thinks up and stop doubting myself and my abilities. I'm suppose to rid my life and emotions of people and circumstances that only hold me back and aren't helping the move toward success, love and happiness. I'm ready to do that. I went to the Santa Monica Peir last night to just clear my head and get away from the things and people that just drain me. I wasn't expecting much--which is probably why I had such a good time.
1. There was this group of dancers and breakers who were putting on a show. They said they had been doing this for 10 years and they were REALLY good. It was more than just some dancing, they had like a script that they do that was clearly memorized and rehearsed. I gave them $10 cus they were so entertaining and they made me laugh which was something I really needed at that time. Plus they pulled me out of the audience as a volunteer! They were great and I wish them the best of luck...
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Thursday, January 7, 2010
2010 EPIPHANY!! Let's Get It!
So this won't be long...I don't think. Anyway! New Years was coo. Got to see the man who has my heart and it was fun. Got my first ever new years kiss standing outside club PHX waiting over an hour and a half to get in...i'm not even gonna harp on that...but uh, overall it was a coo night. Here's a couple pics from inside the club ONCE WE FINALLY GOT IN!!
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